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I Said Forget
01:58
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I've forgotten how to be afraid since my world blew up in my face
and now I lay around just laughing at myself.
Day on days of self reflection turn into nights that I forget.
I wish I could say I'm living well.
I'm walking to kill idle time down all the streets we used to drive
recalling conversations from three years ago.
About that time was my last confession.
So many sins that I regret.
I'm building my portfolio.
I tried to think outside the box and thought myself out on the rocks and now I don't know what i should do
Because the last time I was here I was with you.
Yea, the last time I was here, I had you.
About that time was my last confession.
About that time your first cigarette.
A 26-month connection
& I can't believe I said forget.
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2. |
Buckley
04:38
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I'm not scared.
why should I be?
I'm well aware
that we don't sleep
And I don't dance
Although I wish I could
But if I move for you
would you say I'm good
I hope I see this one through
because all I see is you
this feels like a dream and it might be
(this feels like a dream)
girl you can break my heart if you want to
you want to
To not be scared
true stupidity
oh but how you sway
knocks me off my feet
and girl if I'm yours
then Ill do no wrong
I've got my secrets locked up in a book and
buried under worries of cop cars
knock me out
roll your window down
you're lying through your teeth but your smile is so sweet
(you lie through your teeth)
that I would be happy if you just stuck around
so turn your lights down low
oh baby Im not scared
(I'll be your shot in the dark, I'll be your free throw)
cmon baby just
knock
me
out
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3. |
Absent
04:59
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I fell asleep on the drive home
and dreamt that I was two days younger
when I felt control over the expectations
that became the shovel I used to dig my hole.
And I dig down
until I am underground
and I take one deep breath in and out
And I stay awake now
because I hate the thought of waking up to do it all again
And I self-sabotage until its all I do,
And from below I watch your branches
bud and bloom.
And I fell asleep on the drive home
and dreamt that I could turn back time
so I could bother because you don't bother
to set alarms when your gone
and I'm gone, oh I am so gone
But I stay awake now
because I hate the thought of waking up to do it all again
And I self-sabotage until its all I do
And from below I watch your branches
bud and bloom.
What if I said I keep my eyes wide open
(eyes wide open)
Like the nights when i stayed up wasted.
A time before I was absent.
(oh I'm absent)
Back then it all made sense.
Been trapped inside my head so long,
I just want to leave.
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4. |
Out of Place
04:52
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After thinking it over
you're just like dust on my shoulder
you're colder than the bottom of the earth
and our shoes aren't the same size
i could never walk in yours nor you in mine
I saw you for the first time
that I had in months the other night
and the person that I used to "know"
had different eyes.
I'm not upset
Im just out of place
& if this is what you meant by a change in pace
its getting worse with every passing day
and every word you say.
you've lost all the value in your face
and you're not the same
Im tired
and I tried so hard to be there for you
but these days
I wish that you put in that effort too
I saw your face in a different shade of gray
and I've been seeing red since we went our separate ways
believe me
you've lost yourself completely
but I never let things go to my head
for if I did I'd be completely empty
I said I didn't care when you said you didn't care at all
you said we'd still be friends and that we would always stand tall
I never thought those words would end up being my downfall
you dragged me down in the dirt and mud to watch me crawl
believe me
you're no the same anymore
and I'm just out of place.
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5. |
Bottled Mind (Interlude)
02:24
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The last time
/ was
here
/ was
with
you.
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6. |
Selfish
03:42
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I thought this was for better
But I guess I should have never
Gotten our hopes up for forever
Because I'm still waking up with your name on my tongue
I'll always remember
all the plans we made together
to fulfill this year's November
to make you feel alive like when you were young
But now the lies at last come out
you let me strip them to the bone
to confirm a hopeful doubt
but I guess I should have known
and these recent revelations explain your need or space
and why all my expectations got lost along the way
and I know its selfish but I thought you believed in me
ending my year under the weather
I bet you think your fucking clever
because you said if i ever
do this to you there'd be a line waiting just out your door.
So whats it like to be right because you were right?
I lost my intuition and I lack foresight .
And as for my contender,..
well he played the waiting game right.
I'd still do anything you ask
I still want you all alone
remember me from better days
as someone you adored.
But call me up if you think that you're too drunk to drive.
we'll steal the keys and find a way out for the night.
when the smoke clears who's going to carry you home?
Say my name if you think that you're too drunk to drive.
I'll make sure you end up at your own place tonight.
when the smoke clears who's going to carry you home?
you say that you're fine
& I say: "ok"
I know you're not fine
but I say: "ok"
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7. |
My Car @ Your House
04:37
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I got your message when I got out of work
I could tell you were upset; I read you like a book.
I figured that I'd come by.
If I didn't you'd be up all night.
When I pulled up to your house it was just quarter of 10
And I tried to think of words to make you understand.
I didn't leave until past midnight and I still didn't have a clue..
Whats eating you.
I don't want to know.
Whats eating you?
(just say it, say it
Spit it out, spit it out)
Why don't you lie to me?
Say that you're okay because its easier on me.
But if you keep me in the dark and try to hide behind
all of the gray purgatories of your little lies,
I guess i wouldn't feel so bad about mentioning the time.
Don't get me wrong, I want to be involved.
I just wish our conversations weren't monologues.
But I guess I'll just run my mouth until I piss you off.
you always say:
I lie to myself
and I lie to you
and everyone else
Just tell me whats eating you.
I want to know.
Whats eating you?
Don't you dare lie to me saying you're okay because its easier on me.
you always say:
I'm fucking selfish and I don't want to hear about it
I tell myself everyday to open up to you
but inside I feel like my life is burning down
and thats not what you wanted to hear
oh no I fucking doubt it
I'm fucking selfish and I don't care who knows about it
I stand my ground everyday and I don't give up on you
But inside I feel like my life is burning down
and that not what you wanted to hear.
no.
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8. |
Whats Eating Gilbert?
04:46
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When I take into account everything I've seen
You don't want to be alone you just don't want to be with me.
You keep crawling back to the same mistake
that didn't work out from the beginning
They say time heals all wounds
so where did the time go?
What about what I said to you on that late autumn day?
it was a hopeful dream of mine
and it felt real for a while to me.
And its true that me and you are both better off
on separate paths completely uninvolved.
But that doesn't stop the constant wonder of
'what if you gave us a chance?'
You bury me under all the words I thought I'd never hear you say
and I will stay underground so you can dig me up in May.
Surreal. It was so real to me.
Oh you know it felt real to me.
What about what I said to you on that late autumn day?
It was a hopeful dream of mine and a dream it will stay.
I never wanted to leave things this way.
Our best memories are fading to gray.
But things are so different now
And we can't go back.
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9. |
I've Got to Leave
04:15
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"I've got to leave
I've got to take some time for myself
This one's all on me
and I swear its not how it sounds."
I guess that doesn't sound so bad
no, not if you don't look deeper.
Maybe forget all the things I said I meant
though I swear that I believed them.
To say what you mean...
my god that seems unheard of.
This is more like hell than it is like a dream
and darling I'm so scared
that you won't forgive me
Because I know what I've seen.
The only time you show those teeth of yours
is when I'm spitting mine out on your floor &
I hate to say it but if theres one thing I've learned
its that, when it comes to love, I never learn
I remember when we took that drive through your town
& you showed me where you lived and told me about
all the good times you had with your old friends.
Ill be your new old friend.
Then we parked on the side
of the road and turned off the headlights.
We sat in silence [and] I saw you smile
but, god damn, girl,l would it kill you to smile just a little wider?
The only time you show those teeth of yours
is when I'm spitting mine out on your floor &
I'll still keep your secrets safe
though I don't have the strength to be up this late.
you've go my stomach tied in knots so tight
Because I can't help but wait
until we bury the hatchet and make this right.
The only time you show those teeth of yours
is when I'm spitting mine out on your floor &
I had to say it but if theres one thing I've learned
its when it comes to love you never learn.
The only time you let me in
is after whiskey cokes and your tonic gin &
I had to say it but I know that you'll agree
if this ain't love then, baby, I've got to _
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Rocket Ship Worcester, Massachusetts
Rocket Ship is a four piece Alternative Pop Rock band based in Worcester, MA looking to write and perform meaningful music, make friends, travel the states and beyond, and have fun.
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